Fall on my Mind

It’s hard to imagine but here we are in early February and I am already thinking about the Fall. As you might expect the reason for that is the trial of Teagan’s killer starts at the end of September. At this point it’s really just a million questions…

It creates such a weird set of contrasting feelings ranging from how is it that it takes 3 years to get to trial? What crazy nonsense will her killer say to distract from the reality she took the life of an innocent child? How to deal with the inevitable media attention? How to use that moment in time to save other children? How to get all your actual work done since the world does not stop for this trial? What to do if she gets off? How to manage the crazies and trolls who come out to attack you during peak media times? How to deal with the bystanders who explain that it was your fault or how you caused this to happen? In a world where facts don’t seem to matter the evil, stupidity and ignorance of many quick surfaces.

Add to the fact that we don’t know how Teagan was murdered and will only find out then. How will that impact us? What will we tell her brothers? Speaking of Teagan’s brothers how do you deal with a month-long homicide trial during the school year? How do we keep attention from her brothers and manage the information about the case they receive? Will the kids in their classes learn about this and how will that play out in the schoolyard? Are we better off staying here with them to manage those potential impacts or in a courtroom playing audience to a cold blooded child killer? The last thing they need is more distraction and disruption in their young lives which have already been robbed of so much innocence. Then there are practical matters of travel, cost and supporting other people who will be in pain during this process.

Those are just a few of the questions and not a single answer to any of them will bring my sweet, beautiful Teagan back to life.

 

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